This time last year, I was scheduled for my breast cancer surgery and the uncertainties of what to come shook me to my heart’s core…I must admit, my faith faltered then…
Though a year have past when my cancer journey begun, these past few months come with new challenges: I had 5 eye surgeries and on one fateful July day — I had an oral surgery causing me to have dental parethesia, a nerve injury. My severely bruised left jaw made my face so swollen, numb, toothless and having difficulty swallowing, A-fib and shortness of breath, I ended up 3 times at the hospital. I am still unable to eat properly; I’ve lost 11 precious pounds; more than what I’ve lost after my mastectomy. I am so skinny, my skinny jeans looks baggy on me.
But just like during every storm in my life, with even just a flicker of hope, courage and a trembling heart, I am still here by GOD’S GRACE one day at a time.
…though every day of my life seems like a battle, but as I put on the full armor of GOD, I hope and pray to find work again and move to another place…
Do not be ashamed of what your survival looks like. Do what you have to do. You are clawing yourself out of the ache, cutting the pain from the bone. It is never going to be pretty, but I promise — it will always be worth it. ~ The Strength in our Scars by Bianca Sparacino
Thank You GOD for allowing me to see another day. I aim not to live for myself but to live for YOU and my loved ones. Please guide me, give me strength and help me to do better than yesterday…