I always say that my life is and have always been a beautiful struggle with all of the challenges I face, and yet so blessed for being able to overcome them by GOD’s Grace!
The Lord stood by me and gave me strength…
…more so these past months when my darkest point in my life shattered my heart to its core when my Mother passed away.
The saddest sound in the entire universe
is the sound of the last heartbeat!
I’ve never been so helpless and heartbroken! I still ache from losing her…there are days that are tougher!
Missing you comes in waves and tonight,
I’m drowning…
Through this, my breast cancer journey continues…I still have to go through my infusions, tumor marker labs and oncologist follow-up every 3-4 months because of the invasive nature of the cancer I had.
Add-on, my better-half himself is having medical challenges now, too.
I’d rather it just be me, not my loved ones.
But as I always say. too ”there’s always good in bad and that “there’s always something to be thankful for”…
I am thankful that I’m back to work— though I basically work now just for gas and my cancer continuing insurance coverage—BUT I AM THANKFUL THAT I AM WORKING! I’ve always liked to work and I’m blessed that I’ve always been getting along with my co-workers, then and now… some even became long-time friends which I still have contact with though we’re miles apart. My co-workers now are also a bunch of lovely ladies and a handful of gentlemen. Fun group to work with!
Thank you for making me laugh
when I couldn’t even smile.
I was told by my grief counselor and my oncologist today to “be kind to myself” and try to start doing things again that makes me happy even going through whatever life throws at me…
I’ve been away from social media platforms for a while now, but started to be active again on my Twitter, Tiktok, Instagram and this Finding Nirvana.net Website, a part of my Anonymously Yours Network, which with or without and an audience serves as my blogpile of emotions on where I kinda wear my SkippyHeart on my e-sleeves again.
so I am back…
as always,MY DEAR LOVED ONES, FRIENDS, EARTH ANGELS AND BEAUTIFUL STRANGERS, please hold my hand and promise not to let go…
